A tribute to late father

It was five years ago, today’s date; a cortege of more than a hundred mourners attended your funeral. Dad, was your soul able to see us? Or were you able to feel me putting the silver ring on your finger during the wake when we laid you out?

Despite being five years passed, the memory was buried deep within my subconscious; I still remembered vividly that few days before you left us, echoes of sound always stayed in my ears to give you a call. But due to my busy life style with the tuition centre, I just ignored. Only upon that evening, 14th June, 2005, when I reached my home after fetching my boy from school at around 6:30pm, before I wanted to take bath needed to resume going to the tuition centre again, the telephone rang. Apparently I knew it was not the call I wanted to receive. I just made an effort compelling myself to grasp on the telephone. Yes, Daddy, I heard the cry from youngest sister (deep inside me I got such sudden premonition it was regarding U ) that you fell inside the bath room while taking shower with the water still gushing from the tap. The Indonesian maid needed to climb into the bath room to open the door. What a sight? You came naked and went naked! I was then speechless and could not control myself breaking the new to your son in-law and the grandsons. A qualm of pain struck down my spine and in subconscious, my hubby had to hold me and really I needed a good cry. Daddy, why on earth you needed to left us in that manner? I rushed back with the 2nd and youngest brothers at around 10 pm. It was past midnight while reaching home at Wong King Ho Road, Sibu and I was in youngest brother’s car. One of the tyres went burst , and thanks God, He saved us from another bad omen. It was lucky that my hand phone had a flashlight aided to change the spare tyre. God also answered my prayers asking 2nd brother to turn back to look for us.

Daddy, when I reached home, I only saw your cold body in the sitting room. Did your soul saw me talking to you while I knelt beside you seeking forgiveness from you? I was so disobedient when God told me to call home to you and especially every time when I just stopped on the cross junction waiting for the green lights that similar sound echoed in my ears. I regretted that I never brought you to a church due to time constraint despite you once wanted to follow me to church. Now I never got a chance to bring you to our savior and it is my deepest hurt and my mistake. I just wonder where the big Chinese Bible I gave to you was but I only saw the small Bible near to your pillow. I could not sleep for a week and I needed to consult my Pastor whom he requested me to write a long letter to you for him to pray over. Did you read it Daddy? I asked God to reduce your sins on earth to let your soul having lighter judgments wherever you may be now. If only God permits you to come into my dream and let me know why you left us in that manner, I shall be much consoled. I went to the doctor who gave you the two injections two hours before you fell and breathed your last, and found that he should not gave such injections at the same time which was too much for the weak heart especially had not been eaten probably for days. Was it the combination of the Amoxil and the Paracetimol too strong the dose the doctor gave made u fell in the bath room? God gave me a picture it was the cause. No matter why, Daddy rest in peace and give us all the blessings and pray for all my other siblings to come to Lord as one day we all can be together in heaven. I could not do much for they all believed the common myth and misconception that Christianity is only a Western culture and religion. I only can pray for them and I really hope your soul could help in this way which is my very desire and not just I am the weird one to them.

For your info, mum is temporary with eldest brother in our old place just next to Sing Kwong, after the maid left a month ago. Your eldest grandson Rodney is doing well in his study in England and Ah Meh is going there soon. Your young grandson Baby who was an apple in your eyes has grown up in his primary 5 and now a State swimmer. 2nd brother and his family choose to migrate to Australia. You need not worry about them, and may your soul always rest in peace.